Feelings are assholes.

Posted 01-23-2011 at 03:43 PM by Kayahtic
Updated 01-23-2011 at 03:57 PM by Kayahtic

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You know after you just break up with someone, sleep on it thinking the next day things will be okay? Wake up the next day and they're there again? Yeah.. I have that now. And I hate it so I'm feeling really down. But this will be the last time it happens and just to be clear.. yeah.. it was Internet dating.

I seriously thought it would be okay, but I guess I was wrong and feelings want to take over my heart and head. I didnt want that, I broke up with the person because I felt like he had no time for me and had time for other things, I told him what I wanted so he could atleast do that much.. but he couldnt really keep up with it.. so I felt like I was always worrying if he still loved me or not, wanted to even be with me, or just spending more time with other friends than his own girlfriend. I loved him, yes.. and I guess I still do for now. So I'm in a down mood today.. I wont hide it. But I know this will prolly go away but right now its bugging me.

But I told him I want us to go back as friends and it would be better to, plus go back to being good friends like we were before we started dating again. I just dont want him to drift away from me because he is a friend of mine after all, and I have known him for some years. I rather keep a friend than have them drift away..

So yeah, woke up, got on, started feeling this way. Yaay, I really hope it goes away soon. Although I know one person will get my mind off everything and support me and confort me. That's exactly what I need right now. =/

In the end, I just wanted to be a happy person as I planned not always wanting something from someone just to keep me happy from what they gave me. I wanted to just be Happy Kay myself.

-Freedom-

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Aw, Kay...I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling like this.

But I do know how you feel, in terms of feelings being assholes and hating them, and such, even though it's in a different case. If that makes sense.

But yeah. You'll only hurt yourself even more if you think about negative things, like him not loving you, or something like that. It may be hard, but please try to stay positive, and you'll feel better quicker. This might be bad advice, but keep telling yourself the positive things, and forget about the negative thoughts.

Sorry I can't be of any help, but I sincerely do hope you feel better as soon as possible, and that the two of you remain great friends and stay happy. I wish you all the best, in that.

Feel better Kay~!

Posted 01-23-2011 at 05:24 PM by Frey Frey is offline

	I already spoke to you in Chatango, but yeh. FEEL BETTER KAYAH IT'LL BE OKAY AND STUFFS.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 06:32 PM by Veece

Thanks Ninja.. you're right because negative thoughts just bring me down more.. I should just make that a rule for myself I'm not allowed to think negative.

Either way, I wont be doing it anymore for my own reasons.

@ Franky yes thank you, my addiction is love, and I do believe that is true, because I am such a nice person, guess I just expect respect from the other person.. hopefully one day I'll get a man who knows how to do that well.

Posted 01-23-2011 at 07:04 PM by Kayahtic Kayahtic is offline

	Like any other storm, this too shall pass. It's gonna be ok.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 07:04 PM by Volta

I know this was directed at Veece, so I hope you don't mind me replying to it. I apologize, if you do though.

"because I am such a nice person, guess I just expect respect from the other person.. hopefully one day I'll get a man who knows how to do that well."

Rightfully so, though, as you deserve it more than most people, Kay. You do deserve that respect, as well as a guy who will give you that respect and treat you well. Maybe even like a queen~!

However, it's not 'hopefully'. You will, I'll promise you that.

Posted 01-23-2011 at 07:09 PM by Frey Frey is offline

	I'VE GOT IT. Steve, go out with Kay.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 07:40 PM by Veece

	Thanks Volta, it shall Indeed. ^^ <3 Yeah Ninja! That's what I want more, but then again I'm sure any woman would. ^^ Haha, yeah.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 07:52 PM by Kayahtic

	And wtf Frankie. O.o
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 07:59 PM by Kayahtic

	Eh, unfortunately, I know quite a few that don't care as much...and yeah. (Heh, that was going to be part of my first rant blog if I ever become VIP. Kind of ironic, or something) Anyway, once again, I hope you feel better shortly, and...don't listen to Veece.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 08:01 PM by Frey

	Steve has a crush on you and he's too shy to admit it, so I'm admitting it for him. =3
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 08:04 PM by Veece

	You'll get VIP soon, dun worry! =D LOL Frankie. That cant be true. He has his own IRL problems. and stuffs. =o
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 08:32 PM by Kayahtic

	Veece is only saying that because he's the one with the crush. I don't remember turning seven again, but it feels good.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 08:38 PM by LuigiMan

	Feelings are good; shows that one can use the right side of the brain.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 08:43 PM by Wapeach

	NONONO THAT'S NOT TRUE . It's Steve. He told me and I have proof. ;D
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 09:08 PM by Veece

	Post this proof, then.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 09:09 PM by Frey

	I'll get banned for explicit content.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 09:15 PM by Veece

	no matter how many times you say you'll heal fast , I always know you end up feeling down I'll be there if you need support , as always
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 09:18 PM by Weedpeepanda

	And I'll be there, too, despite how much I believe know Steve loves you.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 09:21 PM by Veece

	Despite what Veece says, I'll be there, as well. You know..if that's okay and all...
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 09:36 PM by Frey

	Thanks alot for the support you guys, it really helps me turn to the bright side. Also, haha LM.
	Posted 01-23-2011 at 09:37 PM by Kayahtic

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