My Time Here Part 1
Posted 06-04-2012 at 06:02 AM by Kai
Ignore the first paragraph. I started writing this when I was going to leave for good. But I really do want to leave my legacy behind one day as being here was a part of my life. I'll upload about 1000 words of it a week.
Ok so this is going to take me a while to write but it’s something I feel like I have to do. I mean, after 4 years, I can’t just leave without saying something and since this community had such a huge impact on my life it’s only right to talk about my time here as my piece of mind and so I can finally end this chapter in my life. I don’t really care if you think I’m being too dramatic about this because I’m not, I’m just appreciating the time I spent here. You don’t have to read all of this if you don’t want to but the reason I’ve created a separate thread for it is so my legacy will always be around for people to read if they ever want to.
I suppose I should probably start off with when I joined this place. I was a bit undecided about it for a while and it did actually take me a couple of days to decide whether or not to join. When I finally decided to sign up, it was a bit strange because after registering my name, someone called “Orange Yoshi” (Or at least I think that was his name) hacked (or so the rumour mill told me) the forums the day after. Maybe this was some unseen force trying to ward me off but It didn’t work. Although my account was completely wrecked (I couldn’t pm mods, I could request reactivation and I couldn’t actually communicate with anybody) I signed up as Kai 2. Afterwards, I realised that I’d put my email in wrong so I didn’t even get a confirmation email . So…I tried yet again using the name “Kai 3” and this time it worked. I had successfully joined my first community.
My primary reason for joining the forum was to join a competitive clan and it didn’t take me long after posting that I was looking for one, for Bash to invite me to join a clan which was then called “Mario Kart Revolution” I remember it well because I was using the automatic controller setting with a bike whist he was using manual in a kart. I did end up losing the match and subsequently failing my tryout to get in to the clan. I’m sure this wasn’t the main reason though as one of the other requirements was to have voice communication and back then, I only had the PC downstairs.
Anyway, despite that, Bash invited me to come and get to know the members of his clan and race with them to improve. He specifically asked me to race with someone called “Shadow” as he was a good automatic racer and could therefore help me more so than anybody else. I’m not really sure whether or not I did race with Shadow because my only memory after this was when I changed to manual. I improved almost instantly and I began to enjoy the game a lot more. Unfortunately, having no voice communication meant I couldn’t take part in the clan wars so I used to just enjoy reading the chat logs of everyone else having fun.
After a few weeks, a few of us were just idling in the Chatango chat room and we were challenged to a “Territorial war” for “Snes Mario Circuit 3” (These used to be where you’d war a clan for ownership of that track)by WWA. There weren’t enough people in the chat to participate so I was asked if I wanted to play. It might have been that this was a scheduled event and if we couldn’t play, we’d lose the track in line with the rules for this type of event. Regardless, I accepted and I played my first ever war. It was very good fun actually. I tried my absolute upmost to avoid hitting any team mates in fear of being flamed and losing any future chance of playing without communication and I think I was quite successful in my aim actually. We won the war and everyone was happy.
Except I wasn’t. I remember being dissatisfied with the fact that everyone else could laugh, co-ordinate strategies and plan their way to victory without me. It made me feel quite left out. And the fact I was only playing because there was no one else made me consider what I wanted from this clan. I spoke to Bash about this and told him I figured it might be better for me to leave, get some experience and come back better and with voice communication.
So I left. I was effectively back where I started. I hadn’t really been posting anywhere else on the forum so I had no friends or even people I could chat to and vm. I must of spent a fair amount of time clan hunting because I stumbled across a clan called “Mario Kart Racerz” who seemed to inhabit people more my age. Baring in my mind I was 17 when I joined it seemed like the perfect clan. I didn’t even need voice communication (although it’s always a plus). I applied via their website and sooner after, got invited into the clan.
I met some absolutely fantastic people there. Mashed, Bone, Peri and Norkle. Man, the great times I had with them were out of this world. Though that’s later in my time here. As I was fairly new to the clan scene, I was still immature (same with real life) and naïve as to how things went. I totally unappreciated the new people I was meeting and I just wanted to be “good” at the game. Now I’m not bragging or anything but I was better than my fellow clan mates and very stupidly, left the clan with “I have A levels” coming up as an excuse. Though of course, joining another clan within the day sort of gave me away fairly quickly (News travels fast in the clan world.)
Ok so this is going to take me a while to write but it’s something I feel like I have to do. I mean, after 4 years, I can’t just leave without saying something and since this community had such a huge impact on my life it’s only right to talk about my time here as my piece of mind and so I can finally end this chapter in my life. I don’t really care if you think I’m being too dramatic about this because I’m not, I’m just appreciating the time I spent here. You don’t have to read all of this if you don’t want to but the reason I’ve created a separate thread for it is so my legacy will always be around for people to read if they ever want to.
I suppose I should probably start off with when I joined this place. I was a bit undecided about it for a while and it did actually take me a couple of days to decide whether or not to join. When I finally decided to sign up, it was a bit strange because after registering my name, someone called “Orange Yoshi” (Or at least I think that was his name) hacked (or so the rumour mill told me) the forums the day after. Maybe this was some unseen force trying to ward me off but It didn’t work. Although my account was completely wrecked (I couldn’t pm mods, I could request reactivation and I couldn’t actually communicate with anybody) I signed up as Kai 2. Afterwards, I realised that I’d put my email in wrong so I didn’t even get a confirmation email . So…I tried yet again using the name “Kai 3” and this time it worked. I had successfully joined my first community.
My primary reason for joining the forum was to join a competitive clan and it didn’t take me long after posting that I was looking for one, for Bash to invite me to join a clan which was then called “Mario Kart Revolution” I remember it well because I was using the automatic controller setting with a bike whist he was using manual in a kart. I did end up losing the match and subsequently failing my tryout to get in to the clan. I’m sure this wasn’t the main reason though as one of the other requirements was to have voice communication and back then, I only had the PC downstairs.
Anyway, despite that, Bash invited me to come and get to know the members of his clan and race with them to improve. He specifically asked me to race with someone called “Shadow” as he was a good automatic racer and could therefore help me more so than anybody else. I’m not really sure whether or not I did race with Shadow because my only memory after this was when I changed to manual. I improved almost instantly and I began to enjoy the game a lot more. Unfortunately, having no voice communication meant I couldn’t take part in the clan wars so I used to just enjoy reading the chat logs of everyone else having fun.
After a few weeks, a few of us were just idling in the Chatango chat room and we were challenged to a “Territorial war” for “Snes Mario Circuit 3” (These used to be where you’d war a clan for ownership of that track)by WWA. There weren’t enough people in the chat to participate so I was asked if I wanted to play. It might have been that this was a scheduled event and if we couldn’t play, we’d lose the track in line with the rules for this type of event. Regardless, I accepted and I played my first ever war. It was very good fun actually. I tried my absolute upmost to avoid hitting any team mates in fear of being flamed and losing any future chance of playing without communication and I think I was quite successful in my aim actually. We won the war and everyone was happy.
Except I wasn’t. I remember being dissatisfied with the fact that everyone else could laugh, co-ordinate strategies and plan their way to victory without me. It made me feel quite left out. And the fact I was only playing because there was no one else made me consider what I wanted from this clan. I spoke to Bash about this and told him I figured it might be better for me to leave, get some experience and come back better and with voice communication.
So I left. I was effectively back where I started. I hadn’t really been posting anywhere else on the forum so I had no friends or even people I could chat to and vm. I must of spent a fair amount of time clan hunting because I stumbled across a clan called “Mario Kart Racerz” who seemed to inhabit people more my age. Baring in my mind I was 17 when I joined it seemed like the perfect clan. I didn’t even need voice communication (although it’s always a plus). I applied via their website and sooner after, got invited into the clan.
I met some absolutely fantastic people there. Mashed, Bone, Peri and Norkle. Man, the great times I had with them were out of this world. Though that’s later in my time here. As I was fairly new to the clan scene, I was still immature (same with real life) and naïve as to how things went. I totally unappreciated the new people I was meeting and I just wanted to be “good” at the game. Now I’m not bragging or anything but I was better than my fellow clan mates and very stupidly, left the clan with “I have A levels” coming up as an excuse. Though of course, joining another clan within the day sort of gave me away fairly quickly (News travels fast in the clan world.)
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